5 days after moving in

It's been 5 days after moving. Was feeling better after 2nd day till today.

Regretted getting my own house now, as I've to go back to square 1 again 😞. Why oh why!!! I thought moving out can let me be free, but things just got more complicated than before. I hate this feeling. I hate things that are within my control but I can't control it. Everything about adulthood/family bullshit are a hoax. I hate growing up, I hate my choice of partner, why can't I just be myself again?

When can I get a job and escape this unpleasant feeling. Praying everyday to be back to the days where I don't have to worry about shit like this. I really can't tell how is this a blessing in disguise or is it shit just hit the fan for me.

A day after moving in

Even after a day I still misses home very badly. Times has changed I'm so afraid to grow up now. Where are the times where things are so carefree and protected? 🤔 time to sit down and find myself.

The day of moving

Today is the day life's gona be different. New home, new responsibilities maybe even new people staying with me; affecting me :(. Months ago after getting keys, I was so freaking excited to move in, going new house everyday just to lie on the floor ☺. But when the day comes 😭. I miss my old life. I miss being sheltered and not making any decisions and things just go accordingly. What's gona happen next, nobody knows.

I just hope and pray very very hard that, life will only get better or the same will do 🙏. I'm not born to take hardship, as life has been really really smooth for me since young. Seems like I can't move out of my comfort zone. I think the worst part is not about moving. Is moving and staying with someone else's parent. Please let it be pleasant 🙏🙏🙏.