Dear diary,

Been quite awhile since i've posted anything, but just a sudden thought of recording this wonderful feelings i have now. Though it might not be a fanciful ones, as i'm quite a boring person now i have to admit.

Today was an emotional day, it started off with me being damn reluctant to go to my grand's place, because it has been a long time since i visited and plus my job. Sure there will be nagging and things like that coming, but i din't expect it to be such a big blow to me. They just keep digging and digging till i can't take it and broke down. I left the place and strolled around my old house for quite awhile, i called my worried sake bf, telling him the situation. He got really anxious and rush straight down to the location i was at. We strolled for awhile, direction heading to my house and i shared what happened.

The feeling was so amazing, i can't help but feeling touched. Seems like after many broken relationship with mostly but sad stories that i remember, this is the first bf that managed to let me actually only want to write and record wonderful memories, or are there even sad memories with him?

Like there's this question, who will ever rush down from a place to another in the middle of the night when ur the other half is feeling upset? Well, my ex will definitely not do it. Sending me home late at night is already a chore to him. And to him this kind of things are childish, i have to settle it myself. Plus he would probably use my flaw against me the next time we have an argument. Well, that's the past, ones shall move forward and not go backwards.

Still living like it's in a dream >.<. Even we quarreled quite badly at times, but i still love him! My soul mate and my best friend!

Love,
Me

My thoughts

Dear Diary,

Yesterday was a very bad day for me, waited 1 hour for the bus back home and the journey was like an experience in a sardine can. Keep getting elbowed, punched n stepping of feet :(. People are so kan chiong to alight. When i got home, i got a sudden thought about my ex, so decided to message him. Unfortunately, i received a call from him right after saying that i'm harassing him. I know it sounded funny, but it hurts. Sadness wrapped me again, but it reminded me of the past. I stoned for a good 1 hour before coming to the realization that i'm actually very blessed. Blessed that i have a guy that brings me happiness everyday and left sadness for good! Love him to bits and will cherish our everyday :).

From Me :P.

Dear diary,

Thinking back.. when i was still in uni, i'm always complaining about how stressful i was to have to cope with assignments, projects and exams and always pondering/ looking forward to start working, because only in my dream that working you get to learn and get paid, the pay is the incentive to learn. But i was terribly wrong. As working adult, to be continued..

Things to do today:
- Replicate from 2003 v6 to 2008 v6
- Test case for upgrade (dates: 12/7 prod env, 16/7 setup, 21/7 12am + 8 upgrade)
- Error msg midd
- Radius Client setup

While i thought today's gona be just another day of clearing what's on the list, someone came sat beside me and keep picking on my stuff, i'm wondering if he's trying to make my life difficult or is he just commenting what he feels. Honestly, that made me a little down but what cannot kill me makes me stronger.